He looked so little with his big school bag. As the bus approached, he kind of just stood there and gazed as other kids got on. He finally moved and climbed on the bus. He sat next to his friend (our neighbor), and as the bus took off, he was too busy to look up and wave me good bye. All through this process, my eyes were getting blurry with beginning of tears. As soon as the bus left, I dashed home without saying bye to the other moms, because the tears were coming.... I went inside my house, sat on the kitchen floor, and cried. I cried for my baby who was off on a new adventure. I cried for myself, poor me, because my baby doesn't need me like he did before. And I just cried because it felt good to let it out.... Then after 5 minutes, I was over it. Terran was at school, Sisi was at daycare, Pat was at work, and I was finally by myself (plus Aidan of course but he takes long naps)! Yay!
I had been fretting about this moment for days. I don't know why it's so hard, but it was. I guess it's about letting go. Terran has this whole new experience totally new for him and for me. And he's not so much my baby anymore. He's sort of growing up. Well, just sort of.... He still acts like a baby sometimes....
After I was done crying, I took care of Aidan and put him down for a morning nap. The morning was so emotional that I also had to take a nap. This is the beginning of being a mom of school aged children. There's a long road ahead of me.
Terran and his big backpack on his first day of school.
He's very excited and looks forward to kindergarten. He should have gotten a haircut but he refused. I didn't feel like putting up a fight. Maybe this weekend.
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