winter again

The winter is getting worse. We are having a streak of below freezing temperature. It snowed the other day and I was frightened to drive. The most depressing thing is the snow in the city. After a few hours, the white snow turns completely black from the cars. The snow on the side of the streets is just black mush. It makes me sad and sick at the same time.
Out here in NJ, there's not so much traffic so the snow stays white. But it's just unbarebly cold. I can't wait for some warmth.
Other than that, things are pretty normal. I passed my ME exam that I thought I did so horribly. I guess I passed horribly but at least that's off my list.... Moving on to next one.
Terran is becoming more and more conscience out his surroundings. Most days, I pick him up from daycare by 4pm. But on some days, I don't come home until he is almost ready to go to bed. Those days, I just miss him so much and wonder if I am doing this all wrong.
The other day, I had an afternoon meeting in NY and didn't get home until 7. Terran and Pat was waiting for me by the door. Pat said that he opened the door for Terran and when he saw that my car wasn't there, he started crying. He was holding my sweater that I wore the day before (probably picked it off the floor in our bedroom), and waiting for me, looking through the storm door. Having a child is a very emotional experience. This was one that really broke my heart. It felt like I had done it wrong. Two late nights (which is anything after 4) a week is just too much for him. It's definitely a struggle. In addition, I just don't feel like I am doing my job that well. I want winter to be over!