winter again

The winter is getting worse. We are having a streak of below freezing temperature. It snowed the other day and I was frightened to drive. The most depressing thing is the snow in the city. After a few hours, the white snow turns completely black from the cars. The snow on the side of the streets is just black mush. It makes me sad and sick at the same time.
Out here in NJ, there's not so much traffic so the snow stays white. But it's just unbarebly cold. I can't wait for some warmth.
Other than that, things are pretty normal. I passed my ME exam that I thought I did so horribly. I guess I passed horribly but at least that's off my list.... Moving on to next one.
Terran is becoming more and more conscience out his surroundings. Most days, I pick him up from daycare by 4pm. But on some days, I don't come home until he is almost ready to go to bed. Those days, I just miss him so much and wonder if I am doing this all wrong.
The other day, I had an afternoon meeting in NY and didn't get home until 7. Terran and Pat was waiting for me by the door. Pat said that he opened the door for Terran and when he saw that my car wasn't there, he started crying. He was holding my sweater that I wore the day before (probably picked it off the floor in our bedroom), and waiting for me, looking through the storm door. Having a child is a very emotional experience. This was one that really broke my heart. It felt like I had done it wrong. Two late nights (which is anything after 4) a week is just too much for him. It's definitely a struggle. In addition, I just don't feel like I am doing my job that well. I want winter to be over!

Remember me?

I haven't blogged in awhile. That's because it's just too cold to do anything anymore. In the morning, I see that ice has eaten my car as well as everything around it. They say it's a mild winter; yeah right. I wouldn't describe this as mild at all. I park a couple of blocks away from work and so I have to walk. I've got a stylish but heavy black winter coat, with black hat and a warm scarf. I like the look but it's not enough to block the cold wind. What I really need is a mask. When the icy wind hits my face, I can't help but to let out a small scream. It's just so painful it takes my breath away. People shouldn't have to live in places like this. We should all migrate south for the winter.
Our little Terran is really growing up. He is able to say a few things now. His favorite phrase is "up please!" Well, when he says it, it sounds more like "up eeee!" He's no a baby anymore but he still loves being held. He's been calling Pat "dada" for awhile but he finally started calling me "mama". Before, he would also refer to me as "dada". He's just a really happy, usually easy going guy. He is amazingly similar to his dad, not only the way he looks, but also in his attitude and behavior. I wouldn't put Pat and cool together but Terran definitely thinks highly of him and considers him cool.
Pictures to come....